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Mar. 7th, 2008 | 05:30 pm
location: Anime Club of College
mood: 
crappy
music: Little Death - +44
*Boom*
I'm losing it a bit. Again. I might have turned insanely violent. Lord help me. Work has been cut back a little. I still have to wake up every Saturday and Sunday at 3 am and work till 9:30 pm. Some schooldays I do go into work. *sigh* I am trying to help my family by working hard but it is driving me a little bit. I get paid 4.5 $ an hour. I see drunk, after drunk, after drunk. I need to start working on cosplays. I also need to work on my accademic life. It is all going down hill. The anime club is getting on my nerves a bit, but I do still love it. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I might need to go to counselling again. I am starting to think about morals again. I hope it doesn't take me over again. No matter what the balance of good and evil is in my mind... I still want to explode sometimes. Smoking does calm me down at some moments... when I know I might lash out. It is dumb. I know it. I have to quit this. Signing out.
-Toaster<3
I'm losing it a bit. Again. I might have turned insanely violent. Lord help me. Work has been cut back a little. I still have to wake up every Saturday and Sunday at 3 am and work till 9:30 pm. Some schooldays I do go into work. *sigh* I am trying to help my family by working hard but it is driving me a little bit. I get paid 4.5 $ an hour. I see drunk, after drunk, after drunk. I need to start working on cosplays. I also need to work on my accademic life. It is all going down hill. The anime club is getting on my nerves a bit, but I do still love it. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I might need to go to counselling again. I am starting to think about morals again. I hope it doesn't take me over again. No matter what the balance of good and evil is in my mind... I still want to explode sometimes. Smoking does calm me down at some moments... when I know I might lash out. It is dumb. I know it. I have to quit this. Signing out.
-Toaster<3
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a little insane.
Mar. 3rd, 2008 | 10:09 pm
location: bed of my luck
mood: 
cold
music: coldsweat
I need to be saved. I am going insane. I wish I understood everything. I wish I could explore life more. I have the urge to see everything, experience everything. I don't want to waste time. I have so many dreams and yet I tend to forget that successfull plans only succeed if they have an order and are done properly. I have not been sticking to my rules and order. I have been digressing from my goals. I must rest for tomorrow. I hope i in healthy in body and mind enough to go through the day tomorrow without loosing it.